How long does this process take?
When will I be all better?
Will I ever be okay again?
What could I have done differently?
Am I still me? I mean I thought I knew who I was, but it seems like all that has changed. Am I living as someone I don’t even really recognize?
Will I get to know her?
Will I like her?
And how do I explain that sometimes accepting my sleepless nights or impulsive behaviour is a necessary part of loving me?
It’s not a choice in the standard sense and it isn’t to intentionally mess with my treatment plan or my long-term healing.
It’s been three weeks since I’ve felt suicidal. That’s a massive and fantastic milestone worth celebrating. I’ve been working on the things I need to accomplish in order to move forward. These things are still a struggle at times but I’m doing them and doing well.
Is it enough?
Will I ever regain the trust of the loved ones I’ve hurt?
Will I get back to me? Or is bipolar me forever?
What does a successful treatment regimen look like? Is it going to erase my symptoms or just ease them off a bit?
Am I really okay?
Can I do this?