Funny how things can just all of the sudden hit you. You can just be walking down a street and boom. Just this glaring truth show up.
I read all the time. I’m taking a course on emotional regulation and I’m attending a support group on a weekly basis. In these settings I’m hearing a lot about “recovery”.
It’s one thing to change a behaviour but it’s a whole other thing to actually take on the root of the issue.
Behaviours are tough. I’m not debating that at all. I am, however, saying that there’s more than meets the eye most of the time.
I realized suddenly that this distinction is at the heart of many of my conflicts. I’m doing the right things and going through the motions but am I truly recovering from deep within?
Okay. So let me see…,
Now what do I do?
How do I begin to tackle everything I’ve stacked against me in my head? How can I possibly make a moral inventory when I have forgotten so many things?
Recovering is joyful, I’m told. But at the moment it is looking a lot like an uphill battle. A long one.
Let’s hope it is worthwhile.