The Only Way To Survive

Since being diagnosed, I've learned a lot. Not just about bipolar, but the brain in general. And about myself as a person. I don't always like the person I see in the mirror. It's ​a work in progress. See.... I'm pretty lazy. I know this. But I also know that healing from this crisis is... Continue Reading →

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The Old Days

I used to be... Interesting.  I used to like to try new things. I used to have a great deal to say. Today, I don't feel ignited. I feel tired and emotionally tapped out..

The Parent Appreciation Tea

Um.... When did my kid get so old? It's her last year as an elementary school kid. Which means it's the last month. Which means that there are no more Christmas concerts or sports days for me. Abby was asked to serve at the parent appreciation tea this year and here are some pictures of... Continue Reading →

The Way You Make Me Feel

I have always been fascinated by the idea of seeing yourself through another's eyes. We are our own worst critic, so it's interesting to find out what people think. People are intimidated by me. There's no need to be, I'm a teddy bear. My physical appearance makes people think I'm tough. It actually became a... Continue Reading →

The Recovery

Things are changing. I'm not sure what the catalyst is, if the meds are working or if the spring is springing or if it has more to do with me being held accountable at emotional gunpoint.... But something has really been triggered inside me. On a grand scale, I feel motivated. Not only to write... Continue Reading →

The Emotional Distress

Here's a fun story. Girl takes a class on regulating her emotions. Emotional class share makes girl run away because she can't deal. Right? That was me today. I came home from class and threw myself on the floor. I cried. So much crying. The key is acceptance. See, I've been running from the truth... Continue Reading →

The First Nice Weekend

Last weekend was FANTASTIC. August weather. The complaints about the heat we're almost unmanageable. We sat together for a couple of hours while Abby got cool at the river. I'm reminded of the beauty around me. It was not so long ago that I found beauty in nothing. And then I realize how much I've... Continue Reading →

The Real World

I've never lived in the real world. This is news to me. I had no idea. Though admittedly I had heard rumours... "You have a hard time accepting what IS." By "hard time" they mean a complete unwillingness to accept life. It's the truth. Things happen and I just keep shutting them out. Nothing can... Continue Reading →

The Mindnumbing Busyness

I'm busy. Not only have external circumstances come together to create busyness, but I've signed on to doing a lot of things. I'm writing again, like... For clients. And lucky for me, content curation is still coming easily. It feels good to be good at something. I've started booking photography sessions again which I totally... Continue Reading →

The Epiphany 

Funny  how things can just all of the sudden hit you. You can just be walking down a street and boom. Just this glaring truth show up. I read all the time. I'm taking a course on emotional regulation and I'm attending a support group on a weekly basis. In these settings I'm hearing a... Continue Reading →

The Way I Cope

...or actually.... the way I don't.  I thought I was coping just fine with things. I've recently started to see that everything I've done has been in an attempt not to have to deal with or feel any of my feelings.  ...a tactic I don't advise.  It's left me numb. I think when you find... Continue Reading →

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